1. |
Polaris (feat. LTC)
05:10
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[Intro: LTC]
So Cold
[Verse 1: Tom Niland]
They got me now
I am lost in the sound
Of the darkness thats around
I'm not searching what beauty can be found
I'm trapped now
Feels like I've just drowned
I am laying on the ground
I just need to finally rebound
[Verse 2: LTC]
So cold we shiver
On down the river
Woah oh Woah oh Woah
So cold we shiver
On down the river
Woah oh Woah oh Woah oh
[Verse 3: Tom Niland]
I'm so reborn
Took a whole morn
Let me into the sky, then dropped me on the thorns
Feel the thin brown trees
Feel the ice cold breeze
Don't stay too long, you will freeze
Feel the thin brown trees
Feel the ice cold breeze
Don't stay too long, you will freeze now
All around me, white snow falling
Thoughts in a sea, the wolves calling
All around me, feels so dawning
Thoughts in a sea, feel like falling now
[Verse 4: LTC]
I ain't never been scared
Since I saw you right there
In front of me
Don't change the way you speak to me, no
Don't change the way you look at me baby
So cold we shiver
On down the river
No, no
I ain't never been this scared, no
[Verse 5: Tom Niland]
I ain't been so scared
eel so unprepared
I ain't been so trapped
No orientation, lost my map
I ain't been so scared
feel so unprepared
I ain't been so trapped
No orientation, lost my map
[Verse 6: LTC]
I ain't never been this scared
'Till my Momma told me you should never be scared, no
You and I should make amends
Before the winter comes to an end, oh Lord
I've been praying praying every night
That the end isn't as cold as Ice
And I wake up the next morning
Thinking my wrist should be dipped in ice
The thoughts of a man
All wrapped up in his head
Is it better if I end up dead
Or can I take two steps back and
Hope my life gives me three instead
My feelings run with scissors
All around my head
Tryna make me lose my cool
Tryna make me see red
I care more about you than you said
I know more about you than you said
I care more about you than you said
I care, I care, I care, I care,
I care, I care, I care, I care, I can't
I can't do this
My feelings are pushing me through this
I know that you want me
I'm for you, You know this
I'm tryna, I'm tryna gain something from this
But I just, I just can't
[Verse 7: Tom Niland]
Twisted forest roads lead to my future
I felt like this would come much sooner
I lost all my sense, lost all my humor
Soul destroyed, getting much fewer
Day by day, night by night
Lonely, nights free my whole mind
Days feels like I'm loosing my sight
Can't say that I'm feeling allright
[Verse 8: LTC]
So cold we shiver
On down the river
Woah oh woah oh woah
I ain't never been this scared
Since I saw you right there
In front of me
Now don't change the way you speak to me
Now don't change the way you look at me
I ain't never been this scared
'till my momma told me, 'till my momma told me
You should never be scared, no
You should never be scared
Blood in the snow
I know you wanna go
I know you wanna go
You should never be scared
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2. |
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[Act I]
Streams of crystals
Running down
Through the brittle
Frozen town
They start to freeze
In between the ashes
I'm on my knees
Seeing the white flashes
[Act II]
Just let me out now
I feel so alone right now
Trees falling on my soul
Leaving me alive in a hole
A hole, a hole
A hole, a hole
A hole, a hole
[Act III]
My soul, my soul, my soul
Leaving me alone
No control, no control
Leaving me alone
Got no way out
Leaving me alone
Leaving me alone
Leaving me alone
Got no way out
Leaving me alone
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3. |
Dyatlov
02:22
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[Verse 1]
Drops running down my face
Carving paths, leaving a glace
Wish I could erase
The memories of life in space
I can see the light
Illumninating my inner fight
I forgot to tell you
What I'm hiding is the truth
[Verse 2]
Aged old trees around me
Trying to break free
Can't feel my face anymore
I'm a living walking corpse
I see the help but am afraid
If I think I shouldve stayed
Is that worth it?
Is that really worth it, now?
[Verse 3]
Desire growing inside
Nothing feels in line
Falling down, off the side
Everything starts to glide
Fear growing inside
Just want to hide
Falling down, off the side
Everything starts to glide now
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4. |
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[Verse 1: Tom Niland]
Living in the wild
I just wanna be a child
I wont ever be so mild
Won't reconcile
Won't ever see me smile now
Couldn't believe the way we flow
I just have to not fall below
Too afraid to go back, build a bow
To defend me, if they say hello
[Verse 2: Griffin, The Delivery Boy]
I cannot trust the darkness within
The number of times he’s led me to sin
The paladin tries to safeguard the peace
but i split his brains with the slightest of ease
Get on your knees and bow down before me
I am the holder of the most unholy
The schythe in the back and the chain on my side
Stop trying to bargain and die with some pride*
[Verse 3: Griffin, The Delivery Boy]
My steel boots stay trodding
I look toward the sky
My past is dark
But the future is nigh
Silver stained with blood
But I stopped the flood
I do what I must
Until my soul begins to rust
And when that day comes
I shall stare into his eyes
And jam my frosted blade
And smile as he dies
From that day forward
There would be no fear
I will conquer death wherever and whenever he chooses to be near
[Verse 4: Tom Niland]
Floating around between the naked thoughts
Still figuring how I'm gonna swim across
This ocean that people call the mind
Seems so endless, either that or im blind
Got hit in the face with the stones
That got carved out of old mystic bones
I get guided by the bruised skies
That allow me to see the world with one eye
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5. |
Atsana
03:01
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[Verse 1]
Lights, flickering in my eyes
I seem to forget the price
Of standing above
An new city that has fallen off
Russian signs all around me
I don't know where I am lost in
I am in a different world,
Nothing's ever been
So fear-inducing, why did I begin
Should've never gone onto the ring line
Should've stayed out of the decline
Nothing around here looks divine
Looks like its fallen out of align
One sign I could read, said Moscow
I don't know what this is, surrounded by crows
Wanna go back to Roscoe
Everything's depressing, old Picassos
[Bridge]
I just dreamt of the city
That's infront of me, looking so gritty
[Verse 2]
Wandering between all my natural friends
Kinda feels like home, hope this won't end
Finding inner peace was my only intend
Didn't know that for it I would transcend
To another planet, such a fucking lie
I don't know how I couldn't see with my eye
The intention behind the scary moves
That were played on me, this only proves that-
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6. |
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[Verse 1: Sydney Kerley]
Can't stop, can't stop, see you later tonight
Wont stop, won't stop, won't stop it tonight
Can't stop, can't stop, can't stop it tonight
Can't stop ooooooh
Wwo-ah-oh
Wo-ah-oh
Wo-ah-oh
Wo-ah-oh-oh-ohh
[Chorus: Sydney Kerley]
Love you, love you, love you so can't stop
Think you, think you, think of you non stop
Won't leave, can't leave, won't leave nobody,
Won't leave tonight, walk back, walk back,
[Bridge: Sydney Kerley]
Yeah I just don't love you
Can't stop, can't stop, no, I won't stop loving you.
Won't try, won't try, no no no
[Outro: Sydney Kerley]
No-oh-oh-oh-oh
Wo-ah-oh-oh-ohh
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7. |
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[Verse 1: Tom Niland]
3:30 am, I'm in a abyss
Evaluating all the chances that I missed
Time is right now, pain's there to reminisce
Reminds me of things I've never wanted to admit
But which of these led me to deserve perdition
The choices I made never came to fruition
Followed blindly, let my life transition
Okay to bad, this was never a position
That I wanted to be in, full demolition
Of all that I achieved, worse and worse condition
All leads me to a life of suspicion
Against everyone's that in submission
So now, I'm left in this hell right here
All I wanna do is cut off my ear
or to disappear
All I know is I can't endear this hell right here
[Chorus: Tom Niland]
This is all surreal, I'm in an endless loop of fear
There is no appeal, to this world, opposite ideals
This is all surreal, I'm in an endless loop of fear
There is no appeal, to this world, opposite ideals
[Verse: SAVE]
A demon in disguise, wanted a prize
He wanted to talk about the things that ain't right
Like how is your mom, how is your dad
How is your pad, why is there so many feelings of bad
Do you want change, do you want pain
You'll go insane
For money and fiction
I told him ain't rich yet
I want all of these pictures
All in my mind, is so surreal like
And I need them existing, so let me sign
On that contract you giving
I peel off the lies, in all of my visions
Then give them to blind, and tell em just listen
This is the cries, of all that is missing
That you keep alive, whenever you wish it
I feel like in time, they will respect it
Cause this what I, will never rendition
Cause baby, I've been seeing my soul in demons lately
They shade me, and try to chase me in my feelings, I've been crazy
I can not handle the stranger things that make me
Baby
[Chorus: Tom Niland]
This is all surreal, I'm in an endless loop of fear
There is no appeal, to this world, opposite ideals
This is all surreal, I'm in an endless loop of fear
There is no appeal, to this world, opposite ideals
[Verse 3: Tom Niland]
Down here I met an old man
Full of history, he made up a plan
To escape this eternal ban
He was here when it all began
Told me he was part of a klan
That's the reason he is dammed for a lifespan
Reliving his worst memory ever since then
Infinite burning got him a black tan
Whenever he is close to being relieved
He's pushed down again, can never achieve
The small fraction of light he wants to see
Locked in the chains of his sins, detainee
This is the underworld, this is the dark side
I guess now its my turn, need to abide
Every single soul here died a hundred times
I don't see what I did compared to their crimes
[Chorus: Tom Niland]
This is all surreal, I'm in an endless loop of fear
There is no appeal, to this world, opposite ideals
This is all surreal, I'm in an endless loop of fear
There is no appeal, to this world, opposite ideals
[Bridge: Felix Red]
Ahhh
Ahhh
Ahhh
[Verse 5: Tom Niland]
I'm on my way out back to a normal life
Went to hell, now back, erased my eyes
I can't even start to describe what I saw
Horror right infront of me, would've broken every law
I'm on my way out back to a normal life
Went to hell, now back, erased my eyes
I can't even start to describe what I saw
Horror right infront of me, would've broken every law
[Outro: Edvinas Stonis]
Pragaras persekioja kiekviena, ar jie tai zhino ar ne.
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8. |
vōd°ńb.531
02:51
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[Verse 1: Tom Niland]
The feeling never stops just like the clock
Gotta be strong 'till the last knock
Soul got stolen, put behind a lock
It is unreachable, forever blocked
My head's the place where two persons meet
No matter what im doing in the russian streets
It all died 30 years ago, feel no heartbeat
I can feel it climbing up inside, the heat
[Verse 2: Tom Niland]
Standardised buildings rising left and right
Everything's run down, multi-story spite
Broken lights flickering into the black
Youth growing up have a painful backpack
Filled with hopelessness instead of pens
That you can drink to lose sense
They have given up before they started
Because the system made them feel disregarded
[Bridge: Edvinas Stonis]
Welcome to leningrad, oh my god,
I'm sorry for you being in a flawed
City that has no future, no hope
The richer ones are the ones selling dope
[Verse 3: Tom Niland]
Thats what they told me when I first arrived
Now Im sitting here, being sleep deprived
Alcohol got my pain revived
Lost, hopeless, don't wanna be alive
[Outro: Edvinas Stonis]
Saves nuodijimas yra budas pasprukti daugeliai zmoniu, bet ar tai nesukelia daugiau skausmo pabaigoje?
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[Chorus]
Rise up, to the sky
Let it shine, make it mine
(Rise up, to the sky)
(Let it shine, make it mine)
[Verse]
Everywhere I go, I been high, high
Leaving my mouth so dry, dry
Not normal, lost sight, sight
This imagination you can't buy, buy
Got so much water in my eye, eye
Feel like this is my goodbye, bye
Wish I could fly, fly
Wish I could fly now, woah
Woah
[Chorus]
Rise up, to the sky
Let it shine, make it mine
(Rise up, to the sky)
(Let it shine, make it mine)
[Outro]
Oh my god, leave me alone now
Let me be, just let me zone out
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10. |
иней | Frost
02:45
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[Chorus]
I've been feeling so lost
Trapped in the frost
Drowning it out
'till everything turns loud
So lost
Trapped in the frost
Drowning it out
'till everything turns loud
[Verse 1]
Been in the corner store at 3am
Tryna make it 'till the end
Stay out 'till the colors blend
Doing it every weekend
Stargazing while I'm
Drugged out of my mind
Feeling free all of the time
Drinking shit that makes blind
Walking home at 5am
Seeing the sunrise
Trying to avoid them
Summer nights, time flies
Spending all my money on drugs and alcohol
Promise I am fine, no need to call
[Chorus]
I've been feeling so lost
Trapped in the frost
Drowning it out
'till everything turns loud
So lost
Trapped in the frost
Drowning it out
'till everything turns loud
[Verse 2]
Smoking the best haze
Reminiscing over the good days
There's no way back now
Late night walks through the city
Everybody seeming gritty
Liquor in the bag
Stolen, fuck the price tag
Poppin' the pills that we don't know
Seeing corners of the city that didnt grow
Taking lines in the bus
Laying on the rooftop
Running away, can't get us
Won't ever stop
[Chorus]
I've been feeling so lost
Trapped in the frost
Drowning it out
'till everything turns loud
So lost
Trapped in the frost
Drowning it out
'till everything turns loud
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[Verse 1]
Walking through the dirty streets
Feel like the pain is trying to be
A bigger part of me than I want to be
Taking up my soul, piece by piece
Trying to drown it out with the poison
Makes me emotionless, makes me so frozen
Drank too much, feel it coming up
Lost control but can't backup
Flashing lights moving by my eyes
Can't tell whats real, seeing thousand skies
Liquor is a pain in a help's disguise
But you just can't stop until the cries come
Need to go back to safety
But until then the agony is daily
Lost in the thoughts that chase me
I forget everything, I'm going crazy
[Chorus: Tom Niland]
I got no one to blame for my mistakes
Except for myself, except for myself
Have to live with the things I did
Have to live with the memories I can't get rid off, rid off
Rid off, rid off
Rid off
Memories I can't get rid off
[Verse 2: Nuna Macuna]
Dreams ask more of me
Only at 3:30
Catch me in the morning
With my soul just mourning
Wonder what they think of it
Theres parts where I wanna quit
Do you wanna quit, quit
I cared what you thought of me
Now you have the thought of me
Pray someone's blessing me
But I guess its me
Hide in your days now
Wonder what you'll say now
I won't stop
I got out your box
So I watch the days go
Where did all the days go
The pages spread out
Now just have me stressed out
You won't see me cry in the rain
And theres no one to blame, yeah
No one to blame, ah
[Verse 3: Nuna Macuna]
Tell me what you think I've been through
Tell me what you think these roads do
Tell me is it something you save?
Is it something, something for another day?
She says she feels no pain
Hide under a sheet of cocaine
And you can't see me cry in the rain
I guess theres no one to blame
No one to watch the days go
Where did all the days go
The pages spread out
Now you have me stressed out
You won't see me cry in the rain
theres no one to blame, yeah
No one to blame, ah
[Chorus: Tom Niland]
I got no one to blame for my mistakes
Except for myself, except for myself
Have to live with the things I did
Have to live with the memories I can't get rid off, rid off
Rid off, rid off
Rid off
Memories I can't get rid off
[Bridge]
Rid off
Memories I can't get rid off
Rid off, rid oh-oh-off
[Outro: Edvinas Stonis]
Einant i nezinomybe gali sukelti nelaime arba laime, bet tai priklauso nuo tavo praites arba veiksmu.
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[Intro: Edvinas Stonis]
Tavo praities veiksmai visalaik tave prisivys, tad buk pasiruoses buti nubaustas.
[Pre-Verse: Tom Niland]
This is the final step, this is the ending
I'll run now, hide from everything
This is the final step, this is the ending
I'll run now, hide from everything
[Verse 1: Tom Niland]
Since months I've been chased by the lights
I can't anymore, need to get out their sight
What have I done wrong, was no Israelite
Tried to lift it all up to unknown heights
Venato is here, I can feel his heavy breath
Came here to get me and put me to death
Blindless follower, seems like he's on meth
If he gets me, will there be a new Seth?
[Chorus: Felix Red]
Mama raised a soldier, I'm a fucking supernova
Mama raised a soldier, I'm a fucking supernova
Mama raised a soldier, I'm a fucking supernova
Full disclosure on the soda, now in russia safe and sheltered
[Verse 2: Tom Niland]
Am I soldier or am I a sinner?
All I know is I for sure am not a winner
Need to sprint to get to the inner
Don't wanna be the devil's last dinner
[Verse 3: Felix Red]
Mama raised a soldier, I'm a fucking supernova
Can't see what, can't hold, ourselves gather what's told
Never been a suitcase away from gold, parabolic maze in a trisworded brain
Upon your shoulder cup runneth over, Venato the old one, don't strip me from heaven
Only just sipped the nectar, daisies won't push a feather
So merciful, I'll remember the wonder, wash me in thunder, how sheep herd the runner and gone
Ah, lights are off the shore
Thought I shoulda told ya, I'm a fucking supernova
[Verse 4: Tom Niland]
Catching up on the devil's mean fraud
What I felt was an act of god
Was actually mephisto making me so flawed
so now I know, it's time to applaud
[Verse 5: Tom Niland]
He got me cornered
I'll be slaughtered
Don't wanna go back to hell,
I've seen the horror
[Chorus: Felix Red]
Mama raised a soldier, I'm a fucking supernova
Mama raised a soldier, I'm a fucking supernova
[Verse 6: Tom Niland]
Don't wanna go back there
I see him approaching
Don't wanna go back to where
I was just floating
Don't wanna go back there
I see him approaching
Don't wanna go back to where
I was just floating
[Outro: Tom Niland]
He got me now driving in a van
Down to hell with other tortured men
I lost the fight I gave my best at
All my tried to escape have been falling flat
There's no reason now to continue
To just cause more and more issues
Locked in the chains of my own sins
Gonna go and meet the guy who pulled all the strings
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13. |
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[Verse 1]
Need to get rid of my despise
Too late for that, seen my last sunrise
Wish I knew why I get penalized
Theres gotta be stuff I didnt realize
Gates open up below me
Allow me to see stuff that's for free
Only gotta pay with your innocence
But thats easy, everybody seems to sin
This is the end of my story
Looking back, it wasn't filled with glory
Hoped it was worth it, but that didn't come true
So I'm speaking my last words to you
I'm riding off into the abyss
Feel like Arthur, on his last trip
Last thing I'll hear is the snake's hiss
That will kick me off the life's ship
[Bridge(Sample)]
The many miles we walked
The many things we learned
The building of a shrine
Only just to burn
[Verse 2]
Flying up into the sky, I lost
All of my hope tonight
Hope for an good ending
Hope for everything to turn out right
So this is the ending
The last breath I will take
Already know that there'll be
No one at my wake
So goodbye
[Outro(Sample)]
Shine light into darkness
Shine light into darkness (shine light)
Shine light into darkness (shine light, shine, shine light)
Shine light into darkness (shine light, shine, shine light)
Shine light into darkness
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Tom Niland Bielefeld, Germany
tom niland is an indie/rap/alternative producer and vocalist from bielefeld, germany.
writing, composition, recording, mixing & mastering is all handled by himself, done in his bedroom studio since his start in 2017.
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